I know. It's only January. It's far too early to be worrying about that. But it's not. Not for me. It's all I've thought about since January of 2007 - the first time I stepped in to a college classroom.
I wasn't planning on thinking about it yet. It just kinda happened. Someone I worked with casually asked me if I had started thinking about looking for a job...and that was it. I was infected with the virus. The virus that had my emotions doing a crazy dance for the majority of last year. I didn't want the ride to start yet. I thought I had another couple of months. But, apparently, it's out of my control.
I keep telling myself that I won't drive myself nutso this time around. I'll do what I have to do... but I'm not going to let myself fall in to a downward spiral of despair and frustration. I know, who am I kidding, right?
This year is a little different, for now. I'm working in a school. That's a big start, but then again, I was in a school last year. The plus side is that I'm not in a school with 5 other interns, all competing for one job. No, now I'm in a school competing all by myself - but there's no guarantee that a job will come open for me or I'd even get hired for a job if one came available. Another year of graduates will be walking across the stage this May. Another pool of hopefuls all in the same position I was in last year. Which makes my competition that much more fierce.
One thing I keep telling myself, though, is that this year if things don't go my way - I'm still employed. I still have a position in a school. Trying to stay as positive as I can.
I've already started working on my resume and portfolio. Don't want to be worrying about it at the last minute. It keeps me hopeful, and reminds me that I've got a task in hand, goal in sight.
I don't know how often I'll come here to
Writing is my relief. It could be drugs or alcohol or gambling. I'm blessed that I use writing as my way of getting the blues out and making myself feel better. Goes to show how much I should be a teacher, right? Yeah, I think so too.
I'll probably be showing my face a lot more around here, now that I've got the job hunting virus. I just hope with everything inside of me that this is the year I can start a blog post with I GOT A TEACHING JOB!! One step at a time, Joanna, one step at a time.